Return to Eden

Brad Sullivan
7 Easter, Year A
Sunday, June 1, 2014
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Acts 1:6-14
Psalm 68:1-10, 33-36
1 Peter 4:12-14, 5:6-11
John 17:1-11

On Thursday, the church celebrated the feast of the Ascension. Today, we heard the story in Acts of Jesus ascending into heaven and the angels telling the disciples, “what are y’all doing standing around looking up at Heaven. Go. Live the way of Jesus.”

Thinking about Jesus’ ascension made me think about why Jesus came here. Why did God become human? Why did he teach us and minister to us and heal us? Why did he let us kill him? Why was he resurrected, and why did he ascend into Heaven. I hear the answer in our reading from John’s Gospel this morning. “Father, protect them in your name you have given me, that they may be one as we are one.”

Jesus came to make us one with God and one with each other. Jesus came to return us to Eden.

In Eden, we lived in union with God and each other. Adam and Eve were naked and unashamed. They walked with God. They shared vulnerability and knew each other intimately without shame or fear. Then came the fall.

They decided the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil looked tasty and that they wanted knowledge more than intimacy and union with God and so they ate, and what was the first result of their disobedience? Shame.

Taking a Hammer to Your Faith

Brad Sullivan
6 Easter, Year A
Sunday, May 25, 2014
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Acts 17:22-32
Psalm 66:7-18
1 Peter 3:13-22
John 14:15-21

If God were made of gold or silver or stone, then I could understand fighting over God. That’s what people used to do. When one tribe attacked another tribe, the first thing you’d do is steal their little gods; that way their gods might fight for you, or if you didn’t like their gods, then you could just destroy them. That way they’d have no gods fighting for them. So if god were made of gold or silver or stone, then it would make a lot of sense to fight over God. We fight over all kinds of stuff we don’t want other people to take.

Paul tells us, however, what we already know, that God is not made with gold or silver or stone, or something crafted from the imagination of people, so no one can take God away from you. No one can destroy your conception of God, except of course when they do…destroy our conceptions of God.

Those are actually good times, or they have been for me, when I’ve had my conception of God, whatever it was, and someone’s said something or done something, or something has happened in my life, and that concept of God has been smashed with a hammer, and I’ve been left wondering. God is different than what I thought God was, and that’s a good time because then God gives his Holy Spirit to say, “here’s a new way of understanding me.” It’s like the old way, but different. I don’t believe in God the same way I did when I was four years old. So God grants us his Spirit to take our conceptions of him and smash them with a hammer, so his spirit can then grant us a new understanding, a new concept, a new revelation of himself.

Now, we’ve got the creeds in the church which give us our basic understanding of our faith. We’ve got the Apostle’s Creed which we pray at our baptisms. We’ve got the Nicene Creed, the church’s creed which is what we all believe together about God, and within those creeds, there is an awful lot of wiggle room, and awful lot of variation in what we believe about God.

I hear people talk about what they believe the creed means, and I think, “really? Because that sounds really different than what I believe, but it fits within the creed.” So there is a lot of variation and wiggle room within our faith for what exactly we believe and how exactly we believe it, and that’s good thing because there is a lot of variation in all of us, and God helps us believe in and understand him in different ways.

I just decided not to have a confirmation class this year. I’ve held classes for the pasat nine years, and we’d get folks signed up for the classes and make schedules and prepare what were well-planned classes, people wouldn’t be able to make all of the classes. I realized that over the course of those nine years, I spent more time in make-up sessions with those who couldn’t make the schedule classes than I did in the classes themselves, and without fail, the make-up sessions were better than the classes themselves because we could have about our faith and question and wonder together. That’s what God wants us to do, to understand him and love him with joy and wonder and some questioning too. That way when the hammer blow comes to our faith, it doesn’t destroy our faith and grind it to dust. It just chips a little off here and a little off there, and God’s Holy Spirit comes and reforms where it needs to reform.

Confirmation and the classes that went with it had almost became a hurdle where you had to believe exactly how the bishop or the priest believed. There were tests you had to pass. I never had to pass a test, but I heard about them, and this was 24 years ago, that I heard about having to pass Bishop’s tests. I never had to, and yet today, I still hear questions from people thinking they have to pass tests in order to be confirmed. We haven’t taken test for confirmation for a long time, but people still remember it. I think the point was to help give people a good solid foundation, but it ended up being this barrier. The bishops and priests were barriers to confirmation making sure they held the sacraments holy so that anyone who didn’t believe just in the right way didn’t get to it.

What a bunch of hogwash. Jesus never said that. He didn’t say, “well, if you can claim at least 85% intellectual assent to the creeds of the church, then people will know that you are my disciples.” No, he said they’ll know that you are my disciples if you have love for one another.

What we have here and believe in the church is what we have here and believe in the church. We don’t come to worship here in this building to protect anything made of gold and silver, to protect God from his church.

God is in our homes as well, and we worship God and we pray in our homes together. We pray and believe in God a little bit differently in each of our homes, so when parents say, “I want my child to be baptized,” or “I want my child to be confirmed,” I say, “great, teach them about the faith.”

Those are the promises we make whenever we have our children baptized. We say, “I am going to raise my child as a disciple of Jesus.” The church says, “we’re going to help you with that, but we’re not going to take it over for you.” So we raise our children, our family our friends, we raise each other in the faith, and there’s going to be some variation in what and how we believe, and God is not diminished by that. God is glorified in that.

The differences we share and the other ways we believe…I’ve had arguments with people when their beliefs about God were very different from mine. These are Christians I’m talking about, and I’m thinking “that’s just weird,” and they’re thinking, “you’re a heathen.” I’m thinking, “but it’s in the creed!”, and Jesus is looking down saying, “You silly people. Just love each other; that’s what I commanded y’all to do.”

Our beliefs are important, but there’s a lot of wiggle room within them. Our beliefs, sometimes we end up making them into little idols themselves. They aren’t made of gold, or silver, or stone, but they are every bit as rigid. Sometimes we need that hammer to come down and break them so God’s Holy Spirit can enter into us again and say, “love me, and I will reveal to you once more who I am.” Amen.

Jesus Was a Bullfrog

Brad Sullivan

3 Easter, Year A

Sunday, May 4, 2014

St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX

Acts 2:14a,36-41
Psalm 116:1-3, 10-17

1 Peter 1:17-23
Luke 24:13-35

I wrote earlier this week about the joy and wonder of faith and belief without, of believing in Jesus without having seen him.  The scripture last week was about Thomas and Jesus appearing to the disciples and we always call this story “doubting Thomas,” a though he did something wrong, but he didn’t.  Jesus appeared to the other disciples and immediately he showed them the marks of the nails in his hands and side.  Then when Thomas said he wouldn’t believe unless he saw those same marks, all he was asking for was exactly what Jesus had shown the other disciples right away.  So Thomas asks Jesus to see the marks and Jesus shows him and he believes, and then Jesus says, “blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe.”  And so we think, “Thomas doubted!  Bad Thomas.”

No, that’s not what Jesus said.  Jesus didn’t say, “everyone else is so much better than you, Thomas because they have believed without having seen.”  He didn’t say that.  He said blessed. 

We aren’t blessed because of some greatness or some meritorious act on our parts.  We’re blessed because blessings happen.  When we wake up in the morning and the sun comes up, we are blessed.  We didn’t do anything to earn the sun coming up.  It just comes up and its rays warm our bodies, and we are blessed.  Jesus didn’t say, “Thomas, you are in so much trouble now and everyone else is so much better….you’re like a worm and it’s a good thing I already love you or you’d be out.”  He didn’t say that.  He just said blessed are those who believe even if they haven’t seen.

I think part of that blessing is the joy and fascination and wonder of believing without knowing.  Children have that joy and fascination and wonder, and believing without seeing allows us to have that same childlike joy and wonder that is so abundant in children.  Jesus said come to the Kingdom of God as a little child.  Come with that childlike joy and faith and wonder that comes with believing without having seen.

Now today we have Cleopas and his companion walking on this 7 mile journey to Emmaus and Jesus shows up.  They have no idea who he is.  Their hearts are burning as they’re talking to him on the way, then they share a meal and they realize it’s Jesus, and they said, “were not our heats burning on the way?” 

Two things happened here.  They met Jesus in a very unexpected place and way.  We wouldn’t expect to meet Jesus on the way to Van Vleck, but he might show up, and suddenly we get there and we realize, “I think I just encountered Jesus; it was awesome.”  And then they recognize Jesus and knew him in sharing a meal together.

Jesus shows up in unexpected ways.  We have no idea when and where Jesus is going to show up, and we probably won’t realize it until afterwards, and like “wow, my heart was burning there and it felt like God was present.  I’m not sure because I’m supposed to meet Jesus in churchy stuff, and I was just helping someone out, but I think it was Jesus.”  We can meet Jesus in anyone, because he dwells in all of us, right?  “It is no longer I who live but Christ who dwells within me.” 

We get to encounter Jesus in anyone or anywhere in creation.  In music.  In people.  In nature.  In whatever.  Good.  If your heart is burning and you feel like there is this experience of God and you think to yourself, “I think that was Jesus,” good.  Trust it.  Go with it.  Question with childlike fascination and wonder, sure, but trust it.  If you think you’ve just encountered Jesus, you probably have.

The next thing that happened on the Emmaus journey was they had a meal together and their eyes were opened, and they realized it was Jesus they encountered in the meal.  We do this meal really well in the Episcopal Church.  We gather together.  We share stories of our faith.  We pray together and for each other, and then we share the meal, and we encounter Jesus in the Eucharist.  We don’t know exactly how.  We encounter him with childlike fascination and wonder.  Kids get it when they bounce up for communion to encounter Jesus.  They don’t understand it, they just love encountering Jesus.  We do this great here, and this is not the only meal where we get to encounter Jesus.

We can encounter Jesus in any meal that we have.  Think about feast kinds of meals that we have:  Thanksgiving, Easter, Christmas, Weddings, etc., and we have a bunch of people who love each other who are sharing stories and laughter and joy…maybe there are a couple people we don’t know that well, but now it’s like we’re family because we’ve shared this meal together.  The joy, the laughter, the love shared around a meal:  that is Jesus.  The fascination and the wonder and the love of people:  That is Jesus.  So when we share these meals together, knowing Jesus isn’t that crazy.  We get it if we would just let ourselves get it.  We understand if we would just see with the eyes of childlike fascination and wonder and love, then we see, there Jesus was all along.

So when you have these moments, just trust them.  Just trust that it really was Jesus whom you encountered and then, do exactly what Cleopas and his companion did.  They went immediately to the other disciples and said, “Guess what?  We just encountered Jesus!”

We share these stories.  When our hearts are burning and we thing we encountered Jesus, then we go and we share these stories.  We tell people…maybe not a total stranger.  “I just saw Jesus in a bullfrog.”  Ok, don’t tell that to a total stranger.  Tell that to your family and friends and share these stories so we can experience together Jesus everywhere.  Everywhere in this world, we get to share these stories of joy and faith and wonder that come with the blessing of believing even though we haven’t seen.  Amen.

Light On the Horizon

Brad Sullivan

Easter Sunday, Year A

Sunday, April 20, 2014

St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX

Jeremiah 31:1-6

Psalm 118:1-2, 14-24

Colossians 3:1-4

John 20:1-18 

It has been a wonderful Easter so far, starting last night with the ancient service of the Easter Vigil.  My daughter Ellie was baptized at the service and it was a joyful time all around.  We lit the new fire outside in the courtyard, symbolizing the new light of Jesus' resurrection coming into the world, and Ernie reminded me of another ancient custom of which I was unaware which we apparently used to celebrate here at St. Mark's.  We were preparing for the new fire of Easter, and Ernie asked, "are the kids going to road marshmallows on the fire before the service?"  I said, "Of course they are!"

It was great, the kids had a wonderful time eating S'mores, the acolytes started roasting marshmallows, and I thought, "wait, that's going to get on your robes...oh who cares, enjoy!"  It's been a wonderful celebration of life and new life after the season of Lent and Holy Week in which we're really focused on death.  

I'm so glad we have that time to focus on death, to honor that there is death in our lives, to celebrate that Jesus is with us not only in life and in resurrection, but also in death, but today is all about resurrection.  Jesus was resurrected from the dead, promising us that we will share in his resurrection after our lives have ended, and as the Way, the Truth, and the Life, we follow Jesus' way of resurrection throughout our lives, resurrection following the thousands of deaths that occur in our lives, the failures, disappointments, the broken relationships, etc.

I'm about to sing a song about resurrection from these kids of deaths in our lives.  The story from the song is from a friend of mine whose marriage ended.  I was thinking of two friends whose marriages died, one ended in divorce, and the other ended up staying together.  The one couple, their marriage was dead, absolutely dead and in the tomb; they acknowledged it, said, "we're done."  Not long afterwards, they realized they didn't want their marriage to be dead, and they worked hard and prayed hard, and their marriage was resurrected from the absolute death that it had suffered.

My other friend, his marriage ended in divorce; he wanted it to survive, but it just couldn't happen and so for months his marriage was dead and in the tomb and starting to smell, and he was calling his friends, telling them that he was getting divorced, and one friend said to him, "Wow, a shot to the engine room!  Your life is going up in flames.  This is so exciting my friend!  Your life is never going to be the same."  

That was exactly what my friend needed to hear.  Having sat in the tomb of the death of his marriage for months, he needed to hear words of resurrection, and that's what his friend gave him, and I heard this story and thought, "that's the story I need for this song."  So I asked him, "hey, can I use the story of what your buddy said when you got divorced for this song I'm writing?"  He said, "of course, Brad, there's no copyright on the Holy Spirit."  So, this is song about resurrection.  This is called, "Light On the Horizon."

Light On the Horizon

Words and Music by Brad Sullivan, BMI

Traveling some forgotten road; Light on the horizon comes

I’ll journey on and bear my load; Light on the horizon comes

I’d spent a lifetime worrying,

If this was that or right or wrong, always a fight

Then coming up for air

And down again to wrestle on

I won’t let go, but the blessing was never right,

Or never really there

A man said, “be not afraid.”

“Win or draw you may lose just the same,

There’s far worse, and far less.”

“So my son, let it go.

Remember life is a song,

A song in progress.”

I’ll traveling this forgotten road; Light on the horizon comes

I’ll journey on and bear my load; Light on the horizon comes

Leaning back on the hood of my car,

As the ferry takes me across the bay,

Neither here nor there

Singing songs with my guitar,

Remembering why they call it play,

Music and open air

The job was bad and the hours long,

The money was not worth losing my soul

She said she understood.

“For better or worse, for rich or poor.”

Seems better and rich was far as she would go,

Or far as she could

I’ll traveling this forgotten road; Light on the horizon comes

I’ll journey on and bear my load; Light on the horizon comes

A shot to the engine room; your life is up in flames

Exciting times my friend, you’ll never be the same.

Light on the horizon comes.

Light on the horizon comes.

Light on the horizon comes.

Light on the horizon comes.

Bouncing to Jesus

Brad Sullivan

Maundy Thursday, Year A

Thursday, April 17, 2014

St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX

Exodus 12:1-4, (5-10), 11-14
Psalm 116:1, 10-17

1 Corinthians 11:23-26
John 13:1-17, 31b-35           

Paul said whenever we have communion, we proclaim Jesus’ death.  I thought it was all about Jesus’ life and resurrection, and it is, but Paul said we proclaim his death.  Why is that, what’s that about?  Basically I think it goes like this:  Jesus is with us not only in life and resurrection, but also in death. 

I’m going to go right out on a limb and say death stinks.  I’ve said death is a doorway to resurrection, and it is, and at the same time, death is still terrible, and we’re proclaiming that Jesus is with us throughout our lives and in resurrection, and in our deaths and in the thousands of little deaths we have throughout our lives, the disappointments and failures.  Jesus is there with us, and we’re proclaiming that Jesus is with us throughout all of that in the communion.

How exactly does that work?  I don’t know.  I don’t have the first clue.  We’re not supposed to know.  Jesus didn’t explain how communion works.  He simply said, “have a meal together, and I will be with you.  In life, death, resurrection, have a meal, and I’m with you.”  We’ve wasted countless hours and years and lives in the church arguing about and trying to figure out how the mystery of communion works. We have fancy words to describe it, “transubstantiation”, “consubstantiation,” how stupid.  We don’t need to know how it works, it is a mystery, and we’ve had fractions within the church because people understand this mystery differently.  How incredibly stupid. 

Kids don’t worry about how communion works. They just love getting to come be with Jesus.  I’ve seen kids literally bouncing up to have communion, which, if your kids bounce on the way to communion, don’t you dare stop them.  If your grandkids or some kids whom you don’t even know bounces on the way to communion, don’t you dare stop them.  Let them bounce.  They’re joyfully coming to be with Jesus.  They don’t care how it works.  It’s a mystery, and they love it.

What isn’t a mystery is Jesus’ command to his disciples to go, and serve, and love.  That’s what he was teaching them when he washed their feet.  Now I don’t know if feet were different back then…maybe they wore sandals instead of encasing their feet in these sweat producing shoes, but nowadays…I’m not a bit fan of feet.  Washing each others’ feet is uncomfortable and awkward, and intimate (I mean, you don’t give a foot massage to someone unless you deeply know and love them, that’s an intimate thing), so washing each others’ feet is intimate and quite possibly smelly, and I think that’s the point. 

Jesus wanted his disciples to go, and serve, and love, and going and serving and loving is often uncomfortable and awkward, and intimate.  If you go to someone’s home to help serve them in some way, that’s intimate, and it may be smelly, but have you even noticed that with the foot washing, after the awkward and intimate and smelly, there is a profound presence of love. 

When we serve others, it may be uncomfortable and awkward and intimate and smelly, and then afterwards, there is the profound presence of love.  Go, serve, love.  That’s who we are as Jesus’ disciples.

Last year we collected books for Tennie Holmes elementary for the first graders so they would have books to read over the summer.  We’re doing that again this year, and we need someone to spearhead it, to get folks to buy the books and collect them here, and then have a party to wrap them up and get 3 or 4 folks to bring them to the school and deliver them.  I’ve had  a couple “no”s so far from folks who wanted to lead it but couldn’t, so if you want to say yes…just throw something at me.  Throw your shoe at me, you’re about to take it off anyway, and we’ll get those books gathered for the first graders at Tennie Holmes again.

We’re also going to do something to serve the kids at our two other elementary schools as well.  I don’t know what yet, but we’ve got teachers and librarians and nurses in those schools, and they’re going to ask and tell us what is needed, and we’re going to work together and fill that need. 

We used to be known for having fajita dinners here at St. Mark’s to help fund the Honduras Medical Mission trips we’d take, and I propose we start having those fajita dinners again to pay for whatever service we’re going to be doing for the elementary schools.  We need someone to spearhead that too, by the way, so throw your shoe as well.  We’ll do the Cinderella thing and talk afterwards.  

That’s who we are as Jesus’ disciples.  We’re people who go and serve and love.  That’s what Jesus asks us to do.  Notice that Jesus didn’t say, “I’m about to die, so make sure to worship me properly.”  Jesus said, “I’m about to die.  Share a meal together and I’ll be with you.  Life, death, resurrection, I’m with you.  So be with me, and then go, serve, love.”  Go.  Serve.  Love.  Amen.

...Song In Progress

Brad Sullivan

Palm Sunday, Year A

Sunday, April 13, 2014

St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX

Matthew 21:1-11

Isaiah 50:4-9a
Psalm 31:9-16

Philippians 2:5-11
Matthew 26:14- 27:66

Episcopal priest and author, Chuck Meyer, summarized scripture as “God’s search for humankind and humankind’s rejection of that attempt to communicate, to heal, to love, to reconcile, to reconnect.” (Dying Church, Living God)  Realizing that God’s search for us also bears fruit, there is a lot of rejection of God on our part.  He said it must have been frightening for Jesus, knowing, based our history for rejecting God, that people would ultimately reject him. 

People wanted Jesus to do it all for them, but Jesus constantly turned the responsibility back onto them.  You heal them; you feed them, Jesus said. 

Ultimately, he became a threat to the political establishment and to the religious establishment.  He was unsettling, revolutionary, radical in his belief…He saw the universe from a totally different perspective, one that confronted the culture’s prejudices and the religious establishment’s smug certainty about the nature of God…He demanded justice, equality, and above all, love.  So because the culture and the religious establishment felt threatened by him, it was inevitable that Jesus would die. (Dying Church, Living God)

People rejected God, yet again in rejecting Jesus, and yet, killing Jesus didn’t put a stop to God’s reaching out to us through Jesus.  Instead, “the power of God exploded out from him and imploded into everything and everyone, permanently and indelibly.”  (Dying Church, Living God)  God took our rejection of him and used it to be with us even more fully. 

That is the full story of scripture, our rejection of God and God using our rejection to unite with us ever more fully.  It’s a story that keeps on happening over and over throughout scripture and ever since scripture.  Looking particularly at humanity’s propensity for stopping people through whom God is speaking, only to have God’s message explode out more fully through the person’s death, the Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King was killed because God was speaking through him and being a threat to established society, and when he was killed, his message and God’s work exploded out of him and imploded into our society. 

There are countless other stories like this of God speaking through people, those people being silenced, and God’s message breaking out even more strongly.  There are countless stories in the church’s life and in individuals’ lives of God’s presence and power alive and active in their lives.  Sometimes God works through people, bringing healing, reconciliation, and love.  Sometimes God works in ways we don’t know or understand, bringing healing, reconciliation, and love.

A friend of mine has a daughter and when she was two, she wasn't talking much, so they were sitting around one day talking gibberish to each other.  The grandmother was there too, and years before, she had prayed for and received a prayer language.  The language is unknown, and she doesn't know what she is saying.  It is like stories in scripture where God's Spirit speaks through people in languages they don't understand.  My friend prays this language in private, the words praying to God those things on her heart, things of which she may not even be aware, the "sighs too deep for words."

So, the two year old daughter and her mother were speaking gibberish to each other, and the grandmother, not being overly adept at gibberish, begins speaking to her granddaughter in the prayer language.  When they were all finished, the granddaughter looks at her grandmother and clearly says, "yes."  No one knows what was said, but the granddaughter understood what her grandmother was praying.

My point is this:  the stories of scripture are still being written.  The story of God reaching out to us, of us often rejecting God, and of God using our rejection to reach out to us even further is a story which God continues to write in each successive generation, in all of our lives.  We’ve all got stories of God’s healing, reconciliation, and love in our lives; we’ve all got stories of people bringing healing, reconciliation, and love in our lives. 

These stories are our scripture.  We’ll go little “s” on this scripture.  The stories of the Bible are still the Holy Scriptures of the church, Holy Scripture for all of us, and the stories of God continuing to heal and reconcile and love in our lives are also our stories, our scriptures.  We need to tell our stories, share with each other the scripture that is still being written. 

God’s power and presence has imploded into us.  In God, we live and move and have our being.  Nowhere we can go will remove us from his presence, nothing we can do will separate us from God’s love.  As often as we personally or humanity may try, nothing will stop God writing his story in our lives.  Not killing Jesus, not killing countless prophets since Jesus, not running from God’s message, not stuffing cotton in our ears, nothing will stop God writing his story of healing, reconciliation, and love.  God’s healing, reconciliation, and love is our story, our song, a song still in progress.  Amen.

Order Out of Chaos

Brad Sullivan

4th Sunday of Lent, Year A

Sunday, April 6, 2014

St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX

Ezekiel 37:1-14
Psalm 130
Romans 8:6-11
John 11:1-45

           

Since January, I’ve been helping to teach a leadership class called CLAY Leadership in the elementary and middle schools.  The classes are 30 minutes every two weeks in every class in the schools, and folks around the community have signed up and trained to lead these classes.

Good days and bad days – by and large, the student seem to respond pretty well…In these classes, we get to hear some from the kids’ lives, and some of the things and situations these kids are facing.  There are discipline problems and kids acting out.  Of course there are.  You get that sometimes from kids living with two parents in a stable, loving home.  There are kids living with hardly one parent, very little stability, and a very little love given.  Looking at the big picture around the schools, at the home life of some of these kids, it seems sometimes like the world is slipping into chaos.

 We’ve had several family members of parishioners die in the last couple of weeks.  There was another shooting and suicide at Fort Hood.  With an awful lot of wonderful things and good in the world, it sometimes feels like the world is slipping into chaos.

Chaos is how the world began.  In the beginning the world was a formless void – there was chaos, and out of this chaos, God spoke, and the words God spoke created order out of chaos, created something out of nothing.  Light, etc…

In Genesis 2, God fashioned things with his hand to create order and beauty and life.  Adam was fashioned by God’s hands out of the dust of the ground.  Places him in the garden, and for the first time, something isn’t good.  The man is alone, and that isn’t good, so God fashions animals out of the dust of the ground, and finally fashions Eve out of Adams rib. 

God speaks to create order out of chaos, and it is good.  God fashions life out of the dust of the ground to make life and companionship and beauty. 

In our gospel lesson last week, Jesus, fashioned new eyes for a blind man out of the dust of the ground.  He made mud with dirt and saliva, spread it on the man’s eyes, and the man could see.  Jesus fashioned the world with his hands just as God did in creation.

In our Gospel lesson today, when Lazarus died, Jesus spoke, and it came to be.  “Lazarus, come out,” Jesus said, and Lazarus, though dead until Jesus’ words were spoken, came out of the tomb, alive and well.  Jesus spoke life into death, spoke order out of chaos, just as God had done in creation.

Jesus showed himself to be God, the same bringer of order out of chaos that spoke in creation, the same former and fashioner of the earth that formed and fashioned all of life.  Jesus also showed us who we are because Jesus was fully human.

We’re made in God’s image, as we’re told in Genesis 1. 

Our words have power. 

We’re made to do creative and meaningful work with our hands and bodies. 

We are made as light bearers, carrying the fire of Jesus to help bring order out of chaos as well. 

We take part in God’s story of bringing order out of Chaos.

We’re meant to do creative and fulfilling work, and our jobs may be that work.  Our jobs may also be tasks we fulfill.  Our creative work that God has given us to bring light and life, and order out of chaos may be different than our jobs.  Our creative work is our ministry, something God has fashioned us to do to help bring beauty and life into creation, to help bring order out of chaos.

Our words also have this power to bring order out of chaos.  Our words can destroy, and our words can create.  We talked in the CLAY Leadership classes about the power our words have to discourage people from their dreams.  Even people who love us and want to encourage us sometimes say the wrong thing and end up discouraging us.   Our words, of course also have the power to encourage, to give life.  We may not just say “get up” to a dead body and it will, but our words our tremendous power to give life. 

The kids in our schools who have such tragic home lives need words to give them life.  They need more positive influences from loving people full of the light and life of Jesus.  They need to know they aren’t alone in trying to raise themselves.

We’re not fully human if we are alone.  The first part of creation that was not good was that Adam was alone.  We’re made for deep and meaningful relationships.  We’re mean to be naked with each other and with God.  We’re meant to share vulnerability and intimacy with loving friends and family. 

Words of love given intimately and nakedly, metaphorical nakedly are ways we bring order out of chaos.  Creative work to bring life and light to the world are ways we bring order out of chaos.  Jesus brings order out of chaos, and we carry his fire, his spirit with us to bring that order out of Chaos.

Over the next two weeks, CLAY Leadership is having what they call “Parent University”.  Tuesday and Thursday nights for the next two weeks, the trainers and other adults we can gather will be at the three elementary schools and the middle school to have some time with the parents and the kids together.  It’s going to be simple things, playing games together, there will be a lesson.  It’s a chance for some relationship and knowing that there is light and life, that there is order to be brought out of chaos.

I’ll be at two of the four; I’ll be here on the other two.  We need folks from here to come to these as well.  We need folks there to help with the activities, and folks to be there to be carriers of Jesus’ light.  It’s public school, so from the front, we don’t really mention Jesus, but we bring his light anyway, and we do get to mention Jesus in private conversations. 

Talk to me.  Sign up for a school after church.  Take a chance to speak words of life to people in need of those words.  Take a chance to do some creative work, fashioning life out of the dust of the ground.  Take an opportunity to help bring order out of chaos.  Amen.

Mucking Things Up In-Utero

Brad Sullivan

4th Sunday of Lent, Year A

Sunday, March 30, 2014

St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX

1 Samuel 16:1-13

Psalm 23

Ephesians 5:8-14

John 9:1-41

God’s plans for Israel were seemingly in ruins when Saul turned out to be such a terrible king.  When the people of Israel first demanded a king, God told them that they wouldn’t like it, but he went along with it, and God chose the man who would be king of Israel, God anointed him as king, and not too terribly long afterwards, Saul ended up doing a terrible job, breaking covenant faithfulness with God, placing his trust in improper ritual observance, rather than placing his trust in God.  By doing so, Saul was leading the people into not trusting God. 

God’s plans to form Israel as his people who would love and serve him and spread his light to the ends of the earth seemed to be falling apart with the debacle of Saul’s monarchy, and yet when the prophet Samuel was bothered by Saul’s demise, God simply said, "How long will you grieve over Saul?  I have rejected him from being king over Israel.  Fill your horn with oil and set out; I will send you to Jesse the Bethlehemite, for I have provided for myself a king among his sons." (1 Samuel 16:1-2)

God’s plans for Israel were going up in smoke, and God just said, “ok, moving on, let’s try this.”  While God certainly cares when we sin, and God certainly desires for us to live well, God is also utterly undaunted by out sin.  The more we sin, the more God just keeps shining light in our darkness.

In Jesus’ time, people felt that God was constantly seeking vengeance upon sinners, and you could tell the severity of someone’s sin by how badly off they were.  They thought they were sinners in the hands of an angry God, an idea which has unfortunately persisted even to this day.  Even reading Paul’s words, I often mistakenly hear the idea of God’s vengeance.  As Paul wrote in his letter to the Ephesians, “Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them [so that Jesus can unleash his mighty and terrible vengeance upon them].”  Paul didn’t actually say that last part, but I often hear tones of vengeance there.  I think a more accurate hearing of that passage would be, “Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them [so that Jesus can shine his light upon them and help dispel the darkness in people’s lives].”

Jesus doesn’t seek vengeance on us whenever we mess up.  This may seem obvious to us, but it certainly wasn’t obvious to the people in Jesus’ time, believing God was constantly seeking vengeance on anyone who messed up.  Imagine being the blind man whom Jesus healed, and imagine hearing the incredibly good news that you aren’t being horribly punished by an angry God for every little sin.  Imagine the joy of finding out that the problems you have or infirmities you suffer aren’t because God is angry with you, but simply because life happens. 

Jesus doesn’t get all freaked out when we sin and mess up.  He just grabs a flashlight. 

Jesus shines a light on our darkness, to help heal us and bring us to the light.  As Paul wrote, “Once you were in darkness, but now in the Lord you are light.” (Ephesians 5:8)  “Live as children of light – for the fruit of the light is found in all that is good and right and true.  Try to find out what is pleasing to the Lord.  Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them.”  We expose the unfruitful works of darkness not to bring shame or ridicule, but to bring healing with the light of Christ. 

We talk a lot about sin in the church, and we even have this season of the church year seemingly devoted to focusing on our sins, although the real purpose is to shine the light of Jesus on our sins, not just to harp on them over and over. 

Jesus isn’t interested in branding people as sinners.  Jesus is interested in healing, restoration, and reconciliation.  The Pharisees, on the other hand, were very interested in branding the blind man as a sinner; even Jesus’ disciples wanted to brand him as such, but Jesus wasn’t buying in their brand.  The Pharisees were trying so hard to be righteous, they were so full of vim and vigor that they ended up pouring bowls of contempt on those around them.

Jesus, however, came not full of vim and vigor, but full of grace and truth.  Jesus came full of forgiveness, declaring us innocent and reconciled. Jesus came revealing to us who we truly are.  We are not sinners in the hands of an angry God as the Pharisees would have had people believe.  We are not continually punished by God over and over for our mistakes.  We are beloved children of God whom God forgives, justifies, declares innocent, and reconciles to himself.  We are beloved children of God who often do walk in darkness, but when we do, God is undaunted by it, simply finding some new way to shine light into our darkness. 

Jesus exposed the works of darkness in his encounter with the blind man, not because of anything the blind man had done, but rather because of what the people were doing to him.  People expected that since he was blind, the man must have done something deserving of God’s wrath, and since he had been blind since birth, either he had done something really terrible in-utero, or his parents had done something terrible and God’s vengeance had passed on to their son. 

Jesus pointed out how ridiculous that was.  Neither the man nor his parents sinned (to cause the blindness).  He was born blind.  Period.  A crummy thing happened, and it wasn’t God’s vengeance.  The works of darkness Jesus was exposing were not the blind man’s works of darkness, but the peoples’. 

Do not put a stumbling block before the blind, scripture teaches, (Leviticus 19:14)  and people were indeed putting a stumbling block before the blind man, declaring him guilty for being blind, rather than showing him compassion and mercy for being blind.  Jesus shined light into their darkness, giving sight to the blind man, and giving the light of God’s grace and love to the people who had been walking in the darkness of God’s assumed vengeance and wrath.

Unfortunately, many of the people remained there, in the self-imposed darkness of God’s vengeance and wrath.  The healed blind man told them their story, while they knew he could see, they just couldn’t or wouldn’t see God’s grace and love in the healing.  The grace and truth of Jesus ran counter to what they believed about God.  They were daunted by the thought that God could be undaunted by our sin.  They just kept telling the blind man he was a sinner so they could be safe in their beliefs and certainties.  Certainly the blind man had sinned, but God was undaunted by it, and God certainly didn’t seek vengeance on him for it. 

We are disciples of Jesus.  We are God’s people formed to be a beacon to bring the light of Jesus to Bay City and to the ends of the earth.  As God’s people, we mess up and sin all the time, and God is absolutely undaunted by it.  We are not sinners in the hands of an angry God as the Pharisees would have had people believe.  We are not continually punished by God over and over for our mistakes.  We are beloved children of God whom God forgives, justifies, declares innocent, and reconciles to himself.  We are beloved children of God who often do walk in darkness, but when we do, God is undaunted by it, simply finding some new way to shine light into our darkness.  Amen.

...but others will benefit by your being here.

Brad Sullivan

3^rd Sunday of Lent, Year A

Sunday, March 23, 2014

St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX

Exodus 17:1-7
Psalm 95

Romans 5:1-11
John 4:5-42

I don’t know how many times I ask myself what Jesus would teach me in this or that situation, how would I follow in Jesus’ way, but it’s a lot…and quite honestly not enough, truth be told.  How often do I find myself spiritually and emotionally parched, hurting with thirst, and then I turn back to Jesus and find the living water that he gives.  Jesus’ teachings, his life, Jesus himself is living water to give strength to the weary, to give growth to our souls, to satisfy our thirst, and to carry us safely along our way. 

Jesus met a woman at a well, and offered her the living water for her thirsty soul.  I love that Jesus simply ignores the customs and hatred of his people, that he spoke to this Samaritan woman in the first place.  It’s almost as if in his divinity, Jesus was saying, “you silly people, you’re all my children, Jew and Samaritan alike, and I’m not going to play your games of hatred toward each other; I’m going to share myself with you; come and have living water.”  Forget the customs of his time, Jesus was reaching out and offering living water to a woman in need.  For us too, it doesn’t matter who we are or from where we come, Jesus offers us himself, the living water welling up inside us to springs of life that never ends.

Notice also, that Jesus was near a Samaritan village where his disciples went in to get food, but they weren’t going to go in to teach.  By reaching out to this woman, Jesus was also bringing the message of his Gospel to a whole city which would not have been reached by his disciples.  The woman had had five husbands, and the feeling I’ve often been given with this story was that she was to be viewed as promiscuous with her serial marriages and as a wayward soul, living in sin with this man who was not her husband.

In their custom back then, however, only men could divorce.  Women and men weren’t exactly on equal footing regarding marriage, either entering in to marriage or choosing to end a marriage, so five different husbands had either died or divorced this Samaritan woman, and now she was living with a man who wasn’t doing her the honor of marrying her.  Cast off or widowed five times and now dishonored by the man with whom she was living, this woman was definitely in need of the living water which Jesus offered.  Jesus was being a light to this woman who was in darkness.

Jesus was being a light to the nations, which Israel was created to be, even if Israel had not entirely lived into who they were.  The Samaritan woman, then, received the living water from Jesus, caught the fire of Jesus’ light, and carried the fire with her to the people of her city so that she could be a beacon to them, pointing them back to Jesus, to the streams of living water.

This woman, along with Jesus’ disciples were beacons for others, or as Jesus said, they were reapers of the harvest.  The fields were ripe for harvest, Jesus said.  People were ready to hear Jesus’ word and to follow him and believe in him.  People were thirsty for the living water which he offered.  People who had been in darkness were ready for the light of Jesus.  The fields were ripe for harvest.

So, the disciples were sent to reap the harvest, to be beacons of light, pointing people to the living water of Jesus.  The Samaritan woman was sent to reap the harvest, to be a beacon of light, pointing people to the living water of Jesus.  We are here to reap the harvest, to be beacons of light, pointing people to the living water of Jesus. 

I think of those people in my life who have been beacons, pointing me back time and again to the living waters of Jesus.  A friend in college who asked in a public place to pray with me and for me.  Another friend from college who, years later, wrote and spoke beautifully about her faith, and hearing the depth and beauty of her faith strengthened mine.  Family who have stuck their noses in cautiously and lovingly to listen, to advise, to pray, and to be a beacon of Jesus for me.  Parishioners who have lovingly again advised me that I didn’t seem to be leading as Jesus would have me lead.

I’m guessing we’ve all got stories of people who have been beacons for us, pointing us back again to the living waters of Jesus.  Many of us have been beacons for others as well.  That is who we are individually as Jesus’ disciples, and as a the Body of Christ as St. Mark’s.  We are beacons to each other, and St. Mark’s is a beacon to the community.  As Jesus said to his disciples, the fields of Bay City are ripe for the harvest.  There are so many who are thirsty for the living waters of Jesus, so many who are in darkness of one kind or another.  There are so many who need us to be beacons to give them to light of Jesus and lead them to the streams of living water. 

Being a beacon to the community is who we are and why we do so much of what we do.  We’ve had concerts here at the church, and we have another coming up on April 5^th.  We had a pub mass at the Fat Grass on St. Patrick’s Day.  Partly, we had those events simply because they were fun.  I thought green wine with pub songs sounded like a lot of fun for a Eucharist.  The other reason we had these events is to be a beacon to the community.  Having a concert at the church or a pub mass isn’t going to make a new Christian, but those things can help lower the bar for people who wouldn’t come to the church, who wonder, “what are those crazy Christians up to.”  Having these fun events can help people who come realize, “hey, these crazy Christians aren’t so bad.”  This place and the people here are opened up to others through these fun events so we can shine as a beacon to the community.

We have outreach breakfasts on Friday mornings and we give bags of food to hungry folks partly because people are hungry.  We also do that here at St. Mark’s because people need the living waters of Jesus, and serving people helps keep the beacon of St. Mark’s alight for the community to see.

We are beacons of light through personal invitation, in being here on Sunday mornings, sometimes largely for the sake of the other.  People come here looking for the living waters of Jesus, sometimes for the first time, and there is no one to welcome them but us.  Kristin is going to be here this morning with our month-and-a-half old daughter, Ellie.  Kristin was talking about the challenge that would be.  Ellie is still nursing, she’d probably have to go in and out as Ellie really started crying, and she said to me, “I just don’t think I’m going to benefit much from being there on Sunday.”  

I said, “Your right.  You’re not going to benefit much being here on Sunday, but others will benefit by your being here.”  Sometimes, purely for ourselves, we might benefit more by staying home on Sunday.  Sometimes we just need some extra sleep.  Sometimes, however, we come not only for our sake, but for the sake of the other who would benefit by our being here.

The beacon to the community that we are at St. Mark’s grows stronger by our being here, sometimes even when we don’t think we need it..

Jesus is living water that fills us and feeds us and gives us life, and I keep thinking, we could shout it to the hills…except of course there are no hills in Bay City.  There are, however, lots of people in need of living water, and St. Mark’s is here as a Beacon to the Community to guide people to the living water of Jesus.  Amen.

...But Jesus Told Me to Be Childish.

Brad Sullivan

2^nd Sunday of Lent, Year A

Sunday, March 16, 2014

St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX

Genesis 12:1-4a
Psalm 121

Romans 4:1-5, 13-17
John 3:1-17

           

Nicodemus came a long way in John’s gospel, from the man we heard about today, questioning Jesus at night, ashamed and fearful even to be seen talking to Jesus, to presumably being a follower of Jesus, bringing myrrh and aloes to help bury Jesus.  It seems at some point along the way, Nicodemus stopped questioning Jesus and began following him.  It seems at some point along the way, Nicodemus was born again from above. 

Nicodemus was Pharisee, a Jewish sect known for their strict adherence to the Law of Moses, all 613 of the laws.  The Pharisaic life was a life of ritual and religious practice.  As Episcopalians, we kinda get that. 

We are a people of ritual and religious practice.  We wear white robes, symbolizing resurrection garments, and we light candles in rooms full of light, as symbols of the light of Christ.  We’re in the middle of a self-imposed 40 season of fasting and penitence to prepare us for Easter.  We intentionally remind ourselves of our sin and our mortal nature so that we might amend our ways, seek reconciliation, and rejoice in the resurrection.  As Episcopalians, we definitely get ritual and religious practice.  There is nothing wrong with ritual and religious practice, and yet, Jesus was constantly butting head with the Pharisees over their religious practice.

Where the Pharisees (and sometimes even Episcopalians) go wrong in the practice of religion is in believing or acting as though the ritual and religious practice are absolutely necessary for our lives with God, rather than potentially helpful.  Sometimes ritual and practice can take over one’s life, and any meaning or aid in the practice is gone.  We tend not to force or demand ritual and practice.  Where is it helpful, use it.  The practices of our faith have often proven helpful in our journeys with God, helping us to grow into disciples of Jesus.

None of this is possible or even helpful, however, without being born from above.  We often find ourselves in all kinds of messes.  There are all sorts of things from which we need saving, and we often find ourselves trying to claw our way out of the darkness, sometimes even through religious practice and ritual.  While we will have some success, we’re not going to climb out of the darkness on our own.  We tend to go in the wrong direction, be overcome by the darkness, or being grown and knowing so well our capabilities, we tend to rely too much on ourselves.  We need to be born from above to rely not only on ourselves, but on Jesus as well.

Last Wednesday, the Rev. John Newton, Cannon for Lifelong Formation at the Diocese, came and spoke with us for our Lenten soup supper, and he has just written a book called “New Clothes:  Putting On Christ and Finding Ourselves.”  In his book, he wrote the following:

…growth in the spiritual life is not about us doing something but about our hearts being converted to the reality of what God in Christ has already done.  The garment of salvation is already ours through Christ.  The shoe is already yours.  The meaning of life is to grow into that show and to walk in newness of life (Rom 6:4)…remember:  we don’t need to climb out of the darkness.  We have a Rescuer who has climbed down and set us on solid ground and turned us around.  Jesus our Rescuer longs to give direction to our lives.  We need not make a name for ourselves.  Our Rescuer has already named us and spiritual growth is about learning from Him who we already are.  

To me that sounds an awful lot like John 3:16-17:

For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life.  Indeed, God did not send the Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.

God so loved the world that he sent Jesus down into the darkness of our lives so that we don’t need frantically to climb out, but to believe in him and to go in the direction he gives us.  God has saved us already, and transferred us into his kingdom.  We needn’t fight or strive for or achieve God’s kingdom; we must grow into who we are as God’s beloved children and inheritors of His Kingdom. 

You must be born from above, Jesus told Nicodemus.  Become God’s children; become who we truly are.  The only action we take in being born from above is the waters of baptism.  I suppose there is some ritual there, but what is important in baptism is that God partners with us in baptism, using those waters to be waters of rebirth, turning us once again into children, giving us the garment of salvation, and transferring us from the darkness in which we find ourselves into the light of His Kingdom.  Also realize that God is not prohibited by baptism.  We can be born again whenever we trust in Jesus that he is here with us and that he will guide us.  We can be born again whenever we allow God’s Spirit to enter into us to heal us and to lead us.

When we are born from above, we become a child again.  Jesus said in Mark 10:15, “truly I tell you, whoever does not receive the Kingdom of God as a little child will never enter it.”  In being born from above, we reclaim some of our childlike wonder and delight in the world.  In being born from above, we reclaim some of our insatiable curiosity.  No longer content with our knowledge of how things work and the way things are, being born from above, we wonder again, constantly asking how and why, no longer bored by and immune to the beauty all around us. 

Being born from above, we are children again, and children don’t do everything on their own.  Children trust in and rely on their parents.  We trust in and rely on God.  As children, we’re ok with being naked, with being spiritually and emotionally vulnerable and intimate.    

Being born from above, we put aside our need to achieve greatness, to make a name for ourselves.  As children, we have no need to prove our worth.  Children are given immeasurable worth simply because they are beloved of their parents.  We are given immeasurable worth not by what we achieve or accomplish, but simply because we are beloved of God.     

I said earlier that as Episcopalians, we understand ritual and religious practice, and so we do.  We understand that ritual and religious practice do not make us beloved of God.  We are beloved of God.  Ritual and religious practice can help remind us of the fact that we are beloved of God and remind us to put our trust in Jesus and to follow him as even Nicodemus eventually did. 

For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life.  Indeed, God did not send the Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.

God so loved the world that he sent Jesus down into the darkness of our lives so that we don’t need frantically to climb out, but to believe in him and to go in the direction he gives us.  God has saved us already, and transferred us into his kingdom.  We needn’t fight or strive for or achieve God’s kingdom; we must grow into who we are as God’s beloved children and inheritors of His Kingdom.  Amen.

I'm Sorry, You're Just Not That Special

Brad Sullivan

1^st Sunday of Lent, Year A

Sunday, March 9, 2014

St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX

Genesis 2:15-17; 3:1-7
Psalm 32

Romans 5:12-19
Matthew 4:1-11

If ever someone could have said that he was special and the regular rules just didn’t apply to him, Jesus would have been that guy.  He was the Son of God, the very Word of God who had become human.  Jesus could walk on water, multiply food, bring the dead back to life, change the weather with a word.  It seems he could pretty well do whatever he wanted and he had been declared beloved of God by a voice from the heavens.  It seems Jesus could pretty much do whatever he darn well pleased. 

He didn’t do so, however, at least not in the selfish way we tend to use that phrase.  What pleased Jesus was to do the will of God.  Jesus could have broken any rule, any law, he could have done anything, and the tempter knew this, and yet Jesus bound himself to following the ancient wisdom of Scripture.  Jesus was special and yet he still knew the ways of God applied to him. 

Back in 2009, South Carolina Governor Mark Sanford had an extra-marital affair, lied about it, and then said, rather lamely, that he had made a mistake.  Pulitzer prize winning writer, Leonard Pitts, of the Miami Herald, wrote the following:

It isn’t the cheating I’m complaining about…No, what incites this diatribe is those four words of putative explanation: “I made a mistake.” There is to them a connotation of honest error, unwitting miscalculation, accidental omission and “Oops, my bad.” They allow the offender to appear to accept responsibility for his offense while at the same time, minimizing it. He just misjudged. It just happened. He was just careless, inattentive or forgetful. He couldn’t help it.

…[Well] if I put my hand into a fire because I’ve never seen fire before and I get burned, that is a mistake. If you see me get burned and then put your hand into the same fire, that’s not a mistake. That’s an idiotic calculation that somehow, the rules do not apply to you. (http://www.chron.com/default/article/Pitts-I-made-a-mistake-excuse-1741407.php)

I assume Governor Sanford had heard at some point the wisdom of scripture that cheating on your wife is not the way to go.  He chose not to follow that ancient wisdom of scripture in favor of other continually reoccurring, rather selfish wisdom that basically says, “If it feels good, then do it.”  That’s the wisdom that Adam and Eve followed in eating the fruit that God commanded them not to eat.  The fruit was a delight to the eyes, and so they ate. 

Notice that Adam and Eve were not faithful to God and they were expelled from the garden.  They had punishment.  Jesus, on the other hand, was faithful to God and came out of the wilderness strengthened and blessed.  From then on, everything was peaches and cream for Jesus, without anything bad ever happening to him…yeah, ok, not so much.

Here’s the thing.  We’re not going to escape the wilderness.  We’re not going escape times of trial or suffering.  Hard times will come.  Temptation will come.  What we do with and how we respond to those hard times, those trials, is what will bring blessing or curse. 

When we’re in the wilderness and the tempter is offering us solutions, our challenge is that the immediate solutions offered at the time may certainly look like they would work.  We can become blinded to anything other than “get me out of the wilderness.”  With the Mark Sanford example, I would assume he was having problems in his marriage.  He was in the wilderness, and he was probably blinded to anything other than “get me out of here.”  The immediate solution offered by the tempter?  New woman.  It seemed to get him out of the wilderness.  Forgetting that he wasn’t special and that his this solution wouldn’t work without terrible consequences, Governor Sanford listened to the tempter and took his solution. 

When we’re in the wilderness, we need to open our eyes, to take time and pray and think.  Does the immediate solution, being offered follow in accord with the ancient wisdom of God given through scripture?  Will we be causing others harm by how we’re choosing to get out of the wilderness?  The wisdom of Jesus would say if you have to harm others in order to exit the wilderness, then you probably need to wait on God for a different solution.

We know and understand this ancient wisdom.  Many around us do not, and many of us during our times in the wilderness tend to forget.  It is hard to think clearly while in the wilderness.  Part of our calling is to offer the ancient wisdom of God to those who don’t know it, have forgotten it, or just can’t see it because they’re stuck in the wilderness.

Some time ago, I was talking to a mother of a young, unmarried woman, not in Bay City.  Realizing that she couldn’t take care of the baby, the daughter was likely going to give the baby up for adoption.  The mother felt this was the best solution as well, and she was still, understandably, distraught over her daughter’s pregnancy, feeling that there were no good solutions.  She was at the time right in the middle of the wilderness. While no solution seemed like a good one, I asked her if any of the solutions were redeemable.  Could God bring redemption to the situation over time?  That reminder of God’s redemption, the mother told me, was what she needed to hear.  God’s redemption was what she couldn’t see at the time, stuck in the wilderness.

Jesus, following the ancient wisdom of scripture, had faith to see his situation in the wilderness as redeemable.  Jesus trusted in God to bring him out of the wilderness.  Jesus was special and could have turned rocks in to bread to eat, but humans can’t do that, so Jesus didn’t either.  Jesus was special, and God would certainly not have let him die if he had jumped off the temple.  Heck, Jesus could have turned the ground into a pool of water, but humans can’t do that, so Jesus didn’t either.  Finally, Jesus certainly wasn’t going to bow down and worship Satan, a part of creation, rather than worship the creator. 

During his time in the wilderness, knowing he was special, Jesus acted as though he wasn’t.  During his time in the wilderness, not knowing when he would be able to leave or what exactly would happen, Jesus trusted in God to redeem him…which gave him strength to trust in God to redeem him upon the cross as well.

During our times in the wilderness, the temper will come to us as well, telling us we are special, that the rules don’t apply, that this time, the stupid and harmful things which countless others have tried and failed at before will work.  They won’t of course, but the tempter will be mighty convincing. 

Before you get to the wilderness, study and live the ancient wisdom of scripture.  Study and live the way of Jesus.  When you are in the wilderness, call on others to be in the wilderness with you, at least to have a voice of support to help counter the voice of the tempter, and to help remind you that God can redeem the seemingly unredeemable wilderness in which you find yourself.  Follow the ancient wisdom of God given in scripture.  Believe in God and follow in his ways, even and especially in the wilderness.   Amen.