Thursday, April 2, 2015

When Jesus Is Gone

Maundy Thursday - Year B
April 2, 2015
Saint Mark's Episcopal Church, Bay City, TX
John 13:1-17; 31-35 

Sometimes it feels as though Jesus is gone, like he is simply not there in our lives. Jesus has declared us to be one with him, as made evident in the last supper, and yet in John's Gospel, he does not tell about the last supper...at least not about the bread and wine being Jesus' body and blood. That has been discussed in chapter 6. In John's Gospel, the final meal Jesus had with his disciples is told primarily through the story of Jesus washing his disciples' feet, and commanding them to love one another as he has loved them.

This was Jesus' death bed prayer for his disciples. "Little children", he calls them. I am reminded of an image of a parent on the death bed, telling his kids that he will no longer be with them, and praying that they will stay together and love each other after he is gone.

We harm each other, as the Body of Christ; there are times when we are not overly loving to one another. Jesus' death bed prayer, however, was that when we do harm each other, we would forgive each other and love one another as he has loved us. We need each other.

There are and there will be times when we feel lost, when we feel as though Jesus is not there. In those times, Jesus' prayer is that we will turn to each other for love, strength, and support and that Jesus will be with us through each other, even when he is arrested, and crucified, and in the tomb. Amen.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

What Are You Willing to Risk?

5 Lent - Year B
March 22, 2015
Saint Mark's Episcopal Church, Bay City, TX
John 12:20-33

Jesus’ response to the news that some Greeks were looking for him seems odd. “The hour has come for the son of man to be glorified.” Just before this, Jesus had come into Jerusalem, the crowds cheered, and the Pharisees said, “You see, you can do nothing. Look, the whole world has gone after him.” The Greeks’ appearance and searching confirms what was said by the Pharisees – “the whole world has gone after him.” The cat’s out of the bag and there’s no stopping it now.

They were right. Early church had no buildings or organized support. They could not worship in the synagogues, nor in the Roman temples, and yet the church, Jesus’ believers spread like wildfire.. They had to believe in Jesus, trust in him, and risk for their belief in Jesus…and the church thrived.

The Gospel of Jesus and belief in Jesus spread like wildfire.

Contrast with: How many articles, seminars, discussions have I read, attended, and participated in which have to do with growing the church again and reversing the decline of church attendance? People have spoken of church as a business – we need more people in order to keep the lights on. I love our church, our buildings, etc. I recognize the reality that with church attendance decline, the thought of this building not being here in 100 years is a possibility. I don’t operate out of fear of that possibility.

 “Those who want to save their life will lose it.” Ultimately, we’re talking about risk. Greeks risked. Early followers of Jesus risked being kicked out of their synagogues, which they were. Gentiles risked being ostracized. Gospel of Jesus demands risk, and it demands that we invite others to share in the Gospel, not solely for our sake, but for theirs as well, we risk becoming something other than what we are.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Remove the Fig Leaves

4 Lent - Year B
March 15, 2015
Saint Mark's Episcopal Church, Bay City, TX
John 3:14-21

Jesus said he came to bring light, to save the world. There seem to be a lot of "no"s with Jesus, e.g. the 10 Commandments. There are several things we are not supposed to do. Those "no"s, however, are really a way of saying "yes" to something else.

We say no to harming people (adultery, theft, murder, lies against someone) so that we might say yes to loving other people. We say no to putting things in front of or in place of God so that we can say yes to God, yes to life, love, beauty, and relationship. We say no to hiding in the darkness, to keeping ourselves covered with fig leaves.

In the Garden of Eden, the first thing Adam and Eve did after disobeying God was to cover themselves up with fig leaves. They were ashamed and they hid. That way they no longer had to connect to God or each other. They tried to stay safely hidden and invulnerable to each other.

 There are all kinds of fig leaves with which we try to cover ourselves. Sometimes rules and law become those fig leaves that we hide behind. Jesus was talking with Nicodemus about the need that we have to be born from above, and Nicodemus totally didn't get it. Nicodemus was a Pharisee, and as such, he had all the rules down pat, but those rules seem to have become fig leaves with which they covered themselves so they didn't have to be vulnerable with God.

Sunday, March 8, 2015

This Won't Do - Transformed

3 Lent, Year B
March 8, 2015
Saint Mark's Episcopal Church, Bay City, TX
John 2:12-33
Philippians 4:1

I stopped drinking coffee last week, not out of a Lenten discipline, but simply because I was drinking too much, still tired all the time, and I thought, "This won't do." The week was fine until Thursday. I had a long day leading to a long night, and I wanted just one cup of coffee in the afternoon. Then I thought, "I can do all things through God who strengthens me." (Philippians 4:13). I prayed that scripture, and I was suddenly no longer tired. God answered yes, and gave me strength.

I realized then that my comments in weeks past about diet coke and chocolate not meaning that much as Lenten sacrifices were wrong. If giving those things up can bring you to pray, "I can do all things through God who strengthens me," then it is a great disciple. Anything in your life that just won't do is a great Lenten sacrifice.

Jesus saw the money changers and the animals in the temple and thought, "this won't do." He was not, however, cleansing the temple as many Bible section headings say. Jesus was seeking to reform the temple. Money was paid to the temple for its upkeep, and the money changers were there to trade foreign coins for coins proper for the temple. It was like a currency exchange when we go to other countries. There was likely however some underhanded profit going on, and that wouldn't do. The animals that were there were supposed to be there. People were supposed to bring animals for sacrifice, the best they had. If their animals were deemed unworthy sacrifices, they would be redeemed for a certain amount of money. This was practice recorded in Leviticus.

It seems that for Jesus, however, the practice had gone on long enough. My guess is that the heart of the practice (giving the best you had to the Lord) had departed somewhat, and it had simply become a transactional arrangement. Not to mention that for centuries, God had been speaking through the prophets saying, "stop sacrificing animals. I made them all and I don't need any from you."

Friday, June 6, 2014

Return to Eden

Brad Sullivan
7 Easter, Year A
Sunday, June 1, 2014
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Acts 1:6-14
Psalm 68:1-10, 33-36
1 Peter 4:12-14, 5:6-11
John 17:1-11

On Thursday, the church celebrated the feast of the Ascension. Today, we heard the story in Acts of Jesus ascending into heaven and the angels telling the disciples, “what are y’all doing standing around looking up at Heaven. Go. Live the way of Jesus.”

Thinking about Jesus’ ascension made me think about why Jesus came here. Why did God become human? Why did he teach us and minister to us and heal us? Why did he let us kill him? Why was he resurrected, and why did he ascend into Heaven. I hear the answer in our reading from John’s Gospel this morning. “Father, protect them in your name you have given me, that they may be one as we are one.”

Jesus came to make us one with God and one with each other. Jesus came to return us to Eden.

In Eden, we lived in union with God and each other. Adam and Eve were naked and unashamed. They walked with God. They shared vulnerability and knew each other intimately without shame or fear. Then came the fall.

They decided the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil looked tasty and that they wanted knowledge more than intimacy and union with God and so they ate, and what was the first result of their disobedience? Shame.

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Taking a Hammer to Your Faith

Brad Sullivan
6 Easter, Year A
Sunday, May 25, 2014
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Acts 17:22-32
Psalm 66:7-18
1 Peter 3:13-22
John 14:15-21

If God were made of gold or silver or stone, then I could understand fighting over God. That’s what people used to do. When one tribe attacked another tribe, the first thing you’d do is steal their little gods; that way their gods might fight for you, or if you didn’t like their gods, then you could just destroy them. That way they’d have no gods fighting for them. So if god were made of gold or silver or stone, then it would make a lot of sense to fight over God. We fight over all kinds of stuff we don’t want other people to take.

Paul tells us, however, what we already know, that God is not made with gold or silver or stone, or something crafted from the imagination of people, so no one can take God away from you. No one can destroy your conception of God, except of course when they do…destroy our conceptions of God.

Those are actually good times, or they have been for me, when I’ve had my conception of God, whatever it was, and someone’s said something or done something, or something has happened in my life, and that concept of God has been smashed with a hammer, and I’ve been left wondering. God is different than what I thought God was, and that’s a good time because then God gives his Holy Spirit to say, “here’s a new way of understanding me.” It’s like the old way, but different. I don’t believe in God the same way I did when I was four years old. So God grants us his Spirit to take our conceptions of him and smash them with a hammer, so his spirit can then grant us a new understanding, a new concept, a new revelation of himself.

Now, we’ve got the creeds in the church which give us our basic understanding of our faith. We’ve got the Apostle’s Creed which we pray at our baptisms. We’ve got the Nicene Creed, the church’s creed which is what we all believe together about God, and within those creeds, there is an awful lot of wiggle room, and awful lot of variation in what we believe about God.

I hear people talk about what they believe the creed means, and I think, “really? Because that sounds really different than what I believe, but it fits within the creed.” So there is a lot of variation and wiggle room within our faith for what exactly we believe and how exactly we believe it, and that’s good thing because there is a lot of variation in all of us, and God helps us believe in and understand him in different ways.

I just decided not to have a confirmation class this year. I’ve held classes for the pasat nine years, and we’d get folks signed up for the classes and make schedules and prepare what were well-planned classes, people wouldn’t be able to make all of the classes. I realized that over the course of those nine years, I spent more time in make-up sessions with those who couldn’t make the schedule classes than I did in the classes themselves, and without fail, the make-up sessions were better than the classes themselves because we could have about our faith and question and wonder together. That’s what God wants us to do, to understand him and love him with joy and wonder and some questioning too. That way when the hammer blow comes to our faith, it doesn’t destroy our faith and grind it to dust. It just chips a little off here and a little off there, and God’s Holy Spirit comes and reforms where it needs to reform.

Confirmation and the classes that went with it had almost became a hurdle where you had to believe exactly how the bishop or the priest believed. There were tests you had to pass. I never had to pass a test, but I heard about them, and this was 24 years ago, that I heard about having to pass Bishop’s tests. I never had to, and yet today, I still hear questions from people thinking they have to pass tests in order to be confirmed. We haven’t taken test for confirmation for a long time, but people still remember it. I think the point was to help give people a good solid foundation, but it ended up being this barrier. The bishops and priests were barriers to confirmation making sure they held the sacraments holy so that anyone who didn’t believe just in the right way didn’t get to it.

What a bunch of hogwash. Jesus never said that. He didn’t say, “well, if you can claim at least 85% intellectual assent to the creeds of the church, then people will know that you are my disciples.” No, he said they’ll know that you are my disciples if you have love for one another.

What we have here and believe in the church is what we have here and believe in the church. We don’t come to worship here in this building to protect anything made of gold and silver, to protect God from his church.

God is in our homes as well, and we worship God and we pray in our homes together. We pray and believe in God a little bit differently in each of our homes, so when parents say, “I want my child to be baptized,” or “I want my child to be confirmed,” I say, “great, teach them about the faith.”

Those are the promises we make whenever we have our children baptized. We say, “I am going to raise my child as a disciple of Jesus.” The church says, “we’re going to help you with that, but we’re not going to take it over for you.” So we raise our children, our family our friends, we raise each other in the faith, and there’s going to be some variation in what and how we believe, and God is not diminished by that. God is glorified in that.

The differences we share and the other ways we believe…I’ve had arguments with people when their beliefs about God were very different from mine. These are Christians I’m talking about, and I’m thinking “that’s just weird,” and they’re thinking, “you’re a heathen.” I’m thinking, “but it’s in the creed!”, and Jesus is looking down saying, “You silly people. Just love each other; that’s what I commanded y’all to do.”

Our beliefs are important, but there’s a lot of wiggle room within them. Our beliefs, sometimes we end up making them into little idols themselves. They aren’t made of gold, or silver, or stone, but they are every bit as rigid. Sometimes we need that hammer to come down and break them so God’s Holy Spirit can enter into us again and say, “love me, and I will reveal to you once more who I am.” Amen.

Monday, May 5, 2014

Jesus Was a Bullfrog

Brad Sullivan
3 Easter, Year A
Sunday, May 4, 2014
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Acts 2:14a,36-41
Psalm 116:1-3, 10-17
1 Peter 1:17-23
Luke 24:13-35

I wrote earlier this week about the joy and wonder of faith and belief without, of believing in Jesus without having seen him.  The scripture last week was about Thomas and Jesus appearing to the disciples and we always call this story “doubting Thomas,” a though he did something wrong, but he didn’t.  Jesus appeared to the other disciples and immediately he showed them the marks of the nails in his hands and side.  Then when Thomas said he wouldn’t believe unless he saw those same marks, all he was asking for was exactly what Jesus had shown the other disciples right away.  So Thomas asks Jesus to see the marks and Jesus shows him and he believes, and then Jesus says, “blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe.”  And so we think, “Thomas doubted!  Bad Thomas.”
No, that’s not what Jesus said.  Jesus didn’t say, “everyone else is so much better than you, Thomas because they have believed without having seen.”  He didn’t say that.  He said blessed. 
We aren’t blessed because of some greatness or some meritorious act on our parts.  We’re blessed because blessings happen.  When we wake up in the morning and the sun comes up, we are blessed.  We didn’t do anything to earn the sun coming up.  It just comes up and its rays warm our bodies, and we are blessed.  Jesus didn’t say, “Thomas, you are in so much trouble now and everyone else is so much better….you’re like a worm and it’s a good thing I already love you or you’d be out.”  He didn’t say that.  He just said blessed are those who believe even if they haven’t seen.
I think part of that blessing is the joy and fascination and wonder of believing without knowing.  Children have that joy and fascination and wonder, and believing without seeing allows us to have that same childlike joy and wonder that is so abundant in children.  Jesus said come to the Kingdom of God as a little child.  Come with that childlike joy and faith and wonder that comes with believing without having seen.
Now today we have Cleopas and his companion walking on this 7 mile journey to Emmaus and Jesus shows up.  They have no idea who he is.  Their hearts are burning as they’re talking to him on the way, then they share a meal and they realize it’s Jesus, and they said, “were not our heats burning on the way?” 
Two things happened here.  They met Jesus in a very unexpected place and way.  We wouldn’t expect to meet Jesus on the way to Van Vleck, but he might show up, and suddenly we get there and we realize, “I think I just encountered Jesus; it was awesome.”  And then they recognize Jesus and knew him in sharing a meal together.
Jesus shows up in unexpected ways.  We have no idea when and where Jesus is going to show up, and we probably won’t realize it until afterwards, and like “wow, my heart was burning there and it felt like God was present.  I’m not sure because I’m supposed to meet Jesus in churchy stuff, and I was just helping someone out, but I think it was Jesus.”  We can meet Jesus in anyone, because he dwells in all of us, right?  “It is no longer I who live but Christ who dwells within me.” 
We get to encounter Jesus in anyone or anywhere in creation.  In music.  In people.  In nature.  In whatever.  Good.  If your heart is burning and you feel like there is this experience of God and you think to yourself, “I think that was Jesus,” good.  Trust it.  Go with it.  Question with childlike fascination and wonder, sure, but trust it.  If you think you’ve just encountered Jesus, you probably have.
The next thing that happened on the Emmaus journey was they had a meal together and their eyes were opened, and they realized it was Jesus they encountered in the meal.  We do this meal really well in the Episcopal Church.  We gather together.  We share stories of our faith.  We pray together and for each other, and then we share the meal, and we encounter Jesus in the Eucharist.  We don’t know exactly how.  We encounter him with childlike fascination and wonder.  Kids get it when they bounce up for communion to encounter Jesus.  They don’t understand it, they just love encountering Jesus.  We do this great here, and this is not the only meal where we get to encounter Jesus.
We can encounter Jesus in any meal that we have.  Think about feast kinds of meals that we have:  Thanksgiving, Easter, Christmas, Weddings, etc., and we have a bunch of people who love each other who are sharing stories and laughter and joy…maybe there are a couple people we don’t know that well, but now it’s like we’re family because we’ve shared this meal together.  The joy, the laughter, the love shared around a meal:  that is Jesus.  The fascination and the wonder and the love of people:  That is Jesus.  So when we share these meals together, knowing Jesus isn’t that crazy.  We get it if we would just let ourselves get it.  We understand if we would just see with the eyes of childlike fascination and wonder and love, then we see, there Jesus was all along.
So when you have these moments, just trust them.  Just trust that it really was Jesus whom you encountered and then, do exactly what Cleopas and his companion did.  They went immediately to the other disciples and said, “Guess what?  We just encountered Jesus!”

We share these stories.  When our hearts are burning and we thing we encountered Jesus, then we go and we share these stories.  We tell people…maybe not a total stranger.  “I just saw Jesus in a bullfrog.”  Ok, don’t tell that to a total stranger.  Tell that to your family and friends and share these stories so we can experience together Jesus everywhere.  Everywhere in this world, we get to share these stories of joy and faith and wonder that come with the blessing of believing even though we haven’t seen.  Amen.