Tuesday, October 29, 2013

I'm Worthless...and Everyone Else Is Beneath Me

Brad Sullivan
Proper 25, Year C
Sunday, October 20, 2013
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Joel 2:23-32
Psalm 65
2 Timothy 4:6-8, 16-18
Luke 18:9-14

“Have mercy upon us, O Lord, have mercy upon us, for we have had more than enough of contempt.  Our soul has had more than its fill of the scorn of those who are at ease, of the contempt of the proud.” (Psalm 123:3-4)  Tax collectors, the contemptible person in Jesus’ parable were generally speaking not overly great folks back in Jesus’ day.  They notoriously collected more than they were supposed to so they could give themselves a kick back.  It was easy to hold a tax collector in contempt.

Put the words of Psalm 123 on the lips of the tax collector, however, and I can’t help but feel sorry for him.  “Have mercy upon us, O Lord, have mercy upon us, for we have had more than enough of contempt.  Our soul has had more than its fill of the scorn of those who are at ease, of the contempt of the proud.” (Psalm 123:3-4)  In the context of Jesus’ parable, that psalm on the lips of the tax collector is a prayer of someone who is lost, a prayer of someone who is fairly contemptible to those around him and yet a prayer of someone who doesn’t know how else to be.   

The tax collector is harming others to help himself, and yet Jesus presents him as someone who has lost his way, or as someone who never knew a good way to go in the first place.  Jesus told another parable to some who trusted in themselves that they were righteous and regarded others with contempt.  It seems to me, that if you trust in yourself and hold others in contempt, then you’re just a stones’ throw away from becoming like the tax collector yourself, harming others to help yourself. 

This isn’t so hard to do if your life is not part of a greater narrative. If you truly trust in yourself that you are righteous, then others can quickly become beneath you.  “I’m a self made man.”  “I did this all without any help from anyone.”  “Everyone else is beneath me.”  Not everyone who would claim those first two statements would believe the third, but they are closely linked.  I am righteous through all that I do.  My life is my own, not part of a greater narrative, therefore others can easily be held in contempt. 

The flip side of that coin is, you have to prove your worth through what you do.  If what you do is the only thing that makes you righteous, then in some respect, you have to earn your own worth.  Take God’s love for you simply because you are his out of the equation.  Take your incalculable value as God’s own creation away, and yes, you do have to prove your worth and be righteous only on your own.  Take away the belief that you were made in God’s image and are a part of his redemptive work in creation, and you likely should trust in yourself and hold others in contempt. 

In our Gospel story today, however, Jesus was talking to Jews.  Folks who believe in nothing greater than themselves can easily feel how Jesus was describing, trusting in themselves and holding others with contempt.  The people of Israel, however, believed they were part of a greater narrative, part of something greater than themselves.  They believed that God had made them and redeemed them as a people to be a light to the nations.  How could they then hold others in contempt?  They were shown God’s love and their great value through God’s love, that they might show that same love and value to others.  “Have you forgotten who you are?”  Jesus was asking.

I was at clergy conference this week, and one of our presenters, Dwight Zscheile, talked about growing up in a nominally Christian household in a part of the country where 85% of the people claimed no religious affiliation.  His family, while Christians, basically fell into that 85%.  He never attended worship growing up.  They didn’t pray.  He didn’t learn the Gospel narrative.  Dwight basically grew up feeling about like I described above, like he had to earn his own worth through what he did.  I don’t know that he treated others with contempt, but he felt that he had very little self worth if he did not accomplish great things. 

As he grew up, however, some folks introduced him to the Gospel narrative.  Some of these were church goers, and some of these were not, but by the time he finished college, he was a committed Christian, having heard and believed that he was a part of a greater narrative than just his own life.  Being a Christian, he no longer believed he had to trust in his own righteousness and earn his self worth, but as he put it, he believed in…

…an alternative story, one in which every human life is precious beyond measure, created for loving relationship with the source of all life.  In this story, your worth is given, not earned.  Rather than bearing the weight of making it all up as you go, you find yourself in a common narrative that goes back many generations.  You are welcomed into a community of unlike people where difference need not be cause for division, as is so often the case in our world.  You are offered forgiveness for your faults and errors, for the violence you do to others and this earth, and so are released to forgive others and break the cycle of hatred and retribution.  You are claimed by a love and power beyond your own.  You are held in arms of grace.  And in that embrace, you are freed to participate in the restoration of human community and all creation.
(Zscheile, Dwight J.: People of the Way:  Renewing Episcopal Identity, Morehouse, New York, 2012, p. 2)
 
There isn’t exactly room for self-righteousness and contempt in being “freed to participate with God in the restoration of human community and all creation.”  Self-righteousness and contempt diminish who we are and the restorative work we get to do in partnership with God.  Self-righteousness and contempt are not who we are as disciples of Jesus.  As disciples of Jesus, we are offered forgiveness “and are so released to forgive others.”

This is not to say that we don’t point out faults or bad behavior when we see it.  Of course we do.  Jesus made no bones about demanding a high moral standard for his disciples.  What else could he demand when his two guiding laws were love God and love your neighbor? 

As disciples of Jesus, we too are called to point out bad behavior when we see it, but we are called to do so without contempt.  We’re called to think, not just react, and we are called to build others up in love, not tear them down in contempt. 

This goes to all of our interactions with others…how we raise our kids, treat our neighbors, forgive those who have hurt us, and seek restoration with those whom we would otherwise hold in contempt.  Forgiveness, love, incalculable worth as God’s children, beloved and redeemed by Jesus.  This is our life, and this is who we are.  This is the narrative and the Gospel which we live and believe, being baptized into Jesus’ body.  This is the narrative and Body into which Rinley Dodd will be baptized this morning, a narrative and Body in which she is in the words of Dwight Zscheile

precious beyond measure, created for loving relationship with the source of all life.  In this story, [her] worth is given, not earned.  Rather than bearing the weight of making it all up as goes [she’ll find herself] in a common narrative that goes back many generations.  [In this narrative she is] welcomed into a community of unlike people where difference need not be cause for division, as is so often the case in our world.  [She is] offered forgiveness for [her] faults and errors, for the violence [she’ll] do to others and this earth, and so [she is] released to forgive others and break the cycle of hatred and retribution.  [She is] claimed by a love and power beyond [her] own.  [She is] held in arms of grace.  And in that embrace, [she is] freed to participate in the restoration of human community and all creation.

(Zscheile, Dwight J.: People of the Way:  Renewing Episcopal Identity, Morehouse, New York, 2012, p. 2)

Amen.

 

Monday, October 21, 2013

Yea, so we've got no idea how this thing works

Brad Sullivan
Proper 24, Year C
Sunday, October 20, 2013
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Jeremiah 31:27-34
Psalm 119:97-104
2 Timothy 3:14-4:5
Luke 18:1-8


“No longer shall they teach one another, or say to each other, "Know the LORD," for they shall all know me, from the least of them to the greatest, says the LORD; for I will forgive their iniquity, and remember their sin no more.”  These words from Jeremiah speak of a new covenant which God was going to make with Israel.  This was during the time of Israel’s captivity and deportation, this terrible low point in Israel’s history, and God was giving them words of restoration.  “I will put my law within them, and I will write it on their hearts; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people.”

God calls it a new covenant, and yet it really seems like a renewal of the covenant they had with God all along, “I will be their God, and they shall be my people.”  “I will put my law within them, and I will write it on their hearts.”  The sounds a lot like Deuteronomy 6:4-6, “Hear, O Israel: The Lord is our God, the Lord alone.* 5You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your might. 6Keep these words that I am commanding you today in your heart.”  So, Jeremiah’s prophecy gives a hopeful vision of restoration and renewal for Israel, a time when God’s covenant will live within the people, within their hearts as God had always intended. 

The words from Jeremiah also to give a hopeful yes to Jesus’ question at the end of our Gospel story this morning, “and yet, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on earth?”  I am always struck by this rather stark and ominous question of Jesus.  After talking to his disciples about the need to pray always and not lose heart, it almost sounds like Jesus is losing heart a bit, wondering rather despondently if there will be faith on earth.  Will his disciples pray and not lose heart?  Will his words and life be on his disciples hearts?  Is Jesus truly wondering, hoping, and partially doubting that there will continue to be faith on the earth?  Perhaps.

Perhaps the question is more for our benefit, to spur us to action.  Hearing Jesus’ question, tends to leave a feeling of personal responsibility in the heart of the listener.  If Jesus is wondering whether or not there will be faith on the earth, then we can’t leave it up to someone else to have faith.  We need to have faith ourselves, to pray continually and not lose heart.  Perhaps Jesus is asking the if there will be faith on the earth to underscore the need for his disciples to pray always and not lose heart, as if to say, “if you don’t, then there may not be faith on the earth.”

Tying our passage from Jeremiah to Jesus’ question, however, I can’t help but hear a hopeful “yes” in answer to Jesus’ question.  “Yes, when the son of man comes there will be faith on the earth, because

[God] will put [his] law within them, and [he] will write it on their hearts; and [he] will be their God, and they shall be [his] people.  No longer shall they teach one another, or say to each other, "Know the LORD," for they shall all know [God], from the least of them to the greatest, says the LORD; for [he] will forgive their iniquity, and remember their sin no more.

That hopeful vision is not only for Israel during the time of their captivity, but for us as well and for all time.  Pray always and don’t lose heart, for God will put his law within us and write it on our hearts; we will all know God and he will forgive our iniquity and remember our sin no more.  Yes, there will be faith on the earth when the Son of Man comes, so pray always and don’t lose heart.

Notice also what Jesus says about prayer, that God will quickly grant justice to his people who pray to him day and night.  Well, if it was really all that quickly, would we have time to lose heart?  Perhaps Jesus means that once God acts, that God will grant justice quickly, but there seems to be some delay expected before God acts, otherwise, why the encouragement not to lose heart? 

I tend to like to figure things out and to over think things, and this passage has been no exception.  God will quickly grant justice.  Don’t lose heart.  I wanted to find some way of explaining that so that it made nice logical sense.  I wanted to be able to explain how praying always works, but I could find no easy answers.  Often people pray for things, and they pray a lot for those things, and the things for which they pray don’t happen.  Sometimes justice seems not to happen, at least not as quickly as we’d like.  There’s no formula for how to get prayer to work.  Sometimes we may feel like prayer isn’t working. 

All I can say in response is, “pray always and don’t lose heart.”  My granddad told me on his death bed, weeks before he died, “don’t ever underestimate the power of prayer.”  He sat me down and had me pray with him and memorize the collect for purity at the beginning of the Eucharist.  “Almighty God, unto whom all hearts are open, all desires, known, and from whom no secrets are hid:  Cleanse the thoughts of our hearts by the inspiration of thy Holy Spirit, that we may perfectly love thee, and worthily magnify thy holy Name; through Christ our Lord.  Amen.” 

Notice in that prayer, that we declare God already to know our desires, our secrets, and the innermost thoughts and dreams of our hearts.  We are absolute open books, known cover to cover by God, and we are told by Jesus to “pray always and not lose heart.”  God already knows us.  God knows our needs and desires before we ask, and yet God desires us to ask anyway.  God knows us better than we know ourselves, and yet we are told to make ourselves known to God in prayer. 

Perhaps by praying always and not losing heart, we are opening ourselves up to God, opening our hearts to God not so much that God will know us, but so that we will know God.  Perhaps by praying always and not losing heart, we are doing more than making our requests known to God.  Perhaps by praying always and not losing heart, we are partnering with God, allowing him to write his law on our hearts and allowing ourselves to know God.  Perhaps praying always and not losing heart helps fulfill Jeremiah’s prophecy.  “No longer shall they teach one another, or say to each other, "Know the LORD," for they shall all know me, from the least of them to the greatest, says the LORD; for I will forgive their iniquity, and remember their sin no more.” 

Of course Jesus says rather than God will grant justice to those who pray always and don’t lose heart.  Jesus says God will be patient with us in our pestering of him and God will quickly grant us justice.  We may have to wait and not lose heart, but God will quickly grant us justice.  Hmmm?  I really don’t know how that works.  I can’t exactly explain that one.  All I can say is, “I believe it.”  I don’t know how exactly, but I believe it.  I’ll leave it to Jesus to know how exactly that all fits together.  In the mean time, all I know is I find more peace when I pray always and don’t lose heart.  I find more joy when I pray always and don’t lose heart.  I can’t say exactly why.  I simply believe Jesus’ words and find them to be true.  Pray always and don’t lose heart.  “I will put my law within them,” says the Lord, “and I will write it on their hearts; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people.”  Amen.

Sunday, October 13, 2013

Jesus, Lepers, and Zombies

Brad Sullivan
Proper 23, Year C
Sunday, October 13, 2013
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Jeremiah 29:1, 4-7
Psalm 66:1-11
2 Timothy 2:8-15
Luke 17:11-19

 
I’ve been watching the TV show, “The Walking Dead,” which is soon to start its fourth season, and I’ve been thoroughly enjoying it.  “The Walking Dead” is your basic end of the world, zombie apocalypse drama with small groups of people struggling to survive in the wake of a zombie apocalypse.  As Kristin pointed out one night, it isn’t an overly happy show, and she wasn’t too keen on watching it because of the often rather tragic situations the survivors often found themselves.  Then after a couple of episodes she was totally hooked.

I noticed though that the level of drama, the intensity of emotion expressed by the characters was really no different than many other shows I’ve seen.  We were watching some family drama set in modern time with everyday, regular kinds of struggles, and I noticed that the characters in that show were getting just as intense in their level of emotion and drama as the people in the end of the world zombie apocalypse show (not unrealistically), and all I could think is, “y’all need to chill; it ain’t the end of the world.”

It seems that our level for drama and the intensity of our emotions can pretty well be amped up to fill whatever struggle we happen to be going through, but by and large, our struggles aren’t the end of the world. 

Ten lepers were cleansed by Jesus, and for them, their leprosy, while not the end of the world, was the end of their getting to interact with non-leprous people until their leprosy was healed.  They had to be quarantined from the rest of the people according to the laws of Israel, and once they were cured, they couldn’t re-enter society until showing themselves to the priest and being declared clean. 

Notice, though, that Jesus sent them off to see the priest before he cured them.  They were supposed to be checking in with the priest every seven days, so I assume Jesus was having them go to the priest partially to keep them walking and living as Israelites, rather than despairing and giving up entirely, not checking in with the priest feeling that there was no point.  You may be leprous, but you can still in this small way, live as faithful Jews.  Go, present yourself to the priest.

Then, on the way they were cured, and only one of them returned to thank Jesus.  To be fair, the other nine were likely doing what Jesus said, and rushing to see the priest, now so they could be declared clean and re-enter society.  The laws of Israel demanded that they go and see the priest, but couldn’t it wait.  If they didn’t get the ritual part of their religion done immediately, it’s not really the end of the world.  They were so concerned with getting back to the priest and to society, that they missed the opportunity for gratitude.

We are often so concerned with the various goings on in our lives that we too miss opportunities for gratitude, and really we’re the ones who suffer for it.  When we’re so busy trying to get things done and so worried about what we have to do that we can’t be grateful for what we have, then we often end up feeling like whatever we’re going through at the time is the end of the world, even when what we’re going through is just the regular stuff of everyday life. 

I think it’s safe to say, that so far, all of the struggles we’ve been through in our lives and even the joys and challenges of everyday life have not been the end of the world, and I don’t mean to minimize the struggles, challenges, and tragedies people face.  We struggle with life daily and sometimes we struggle with some truly terrible things.  Keeping or seeking a grateful heart, even in the face of tragedy can help us through the tragedy so that we are not overcome by darkness, but we overcome darkness with light.

For the people of Israel in our reading from Jeremiah today, life did feel like the end of the world, and God, through Jeremiah was telling the people to overcome darkness with light.  Jerusalem had been destroyed, the nations of Israel and Judah no longer existed, and God was telling the people who were being taken away captive into a land of exile to pray for the welfare of the land of exile.  Pray for the welfare of Babylon, the very land whose army just sacked Jerusalem.

Live and thrive in the land of exile.  Build houses, take wives and start families, pray for the welfare of Babylon, for in their welfare you will find your welfare.  Continue being a light to the nations, I hear God saying.  Live as Israelites in the land of exile, but don’t sequester yourselves.  Live among the people of Babylon and be a light to them, showing them the joys and beauty of the Kingdom of God. 

Your nation has been destroyed, you’re being brought captive into Babylon, and yet you are still Israelites, you are still God’s people chosen to be a light to the nations.  Jerusalem is destroyed, but it isn’t the end of the world.  Be grateful because you are still God’s people, a light to the nations.  Be grateful and let the light of your gratitude and the light of God shine in your lives for others to see. 

So too for us in all of the little apocalypses in our lives, in our daily struggles, and in our times of real tragedy, Jesus commends us to keep grateful hearts, not denying our pain or tragedy, but also seeking to be grateful for the ways in which we are blessed.

Sometimes we’re simply not going to be able to feel grateful, and I don’t know that we’re supposed to feel guilty about that.  The 9 guys in the gospel story today who were tacitly reprimanded for their lack of gratitude had just been cleansed of leprosy.  Jesus didn’t tell people in the midst of tragedy, “shame on you for being sad and despondent, you should be grateful for…well I don’t know for what but you should be grateful.” 

We are allowed to be sad, and we seek gratitude.  We seek to keep grateful hearts, realizing that so many of our challenges really aren’t the end of the world.  When tragedy does strike, we keep our hope in Jesus, realizing the words of Psalm 62, “for God alone my soul in silence waits; from him comes my salvation.  He alone is my rock and my stronghold so that I shall not be greatly shaken.” 

We keep our hope and confidence in God, realizing that even the actual end of the world is going to be redeemed.  We can keep gratitude in our hearts as we look forward to the restoration and re-creation of all things in the resurrection which will fortunately look nothing at all like a zombie apocalypse.  Amen.

Thursday, October 10, 2013

On Any Given Sunday

Brad Sullivan
Proper 22, Year C
Sunday, October 6, 2013
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Jeremiah 32:1-3a, 6-15
Psalm 91:1-6, 14-16
1 Timothy 6:6-19
Luke 16:19-31 


There is a big difference between humility and feeling badly about oneself.  You think rather highly of yourself, realize your many gifts and talents, and still be humble, without pride, arrogance, and a sense of entitlement that often accompanies pride and arrogance.  Pride and arrogance often lead to a feeling that the world should acknowledge one’s magnificence and give them special treatment, make allowances, or bend to accommodate. 

Jesus was telling his disciples not to fall into the trap of price or arrogance with the accompanying sense of entitlement.  We are who we are as Jesus’ disciples and we don’t believe the world owes us anything for being Jesus’ disciples.

During Noah’s soccer game yesterday, another of the dads and I were discussing the soccer tournament which other teams were having this weekend, noting that the tournaments went on to Sunday for those teams which did well.  I said to the gentleman with whom I was speaking that next year, if Noah is still playing soccer, he won’t be playing on the Sunday games.  The gentleman agreed with me; we both felt our kids shouldn’t miss worshipping on Sundays for the sake of soccer. 

I realized later that there was, however, something rather disagreeable in my tone when I said Noah wouldn’t be playing soccer on Sunday.  My words were simple enough, but something in my tone implied that the coach or tournament organizer would be wrong for even thinking about having a soccer tournament on Sunday.  The soccer people should know, I felt, that Christians worship on Sunday, and the soccer people should therefore, I felt, have everything wrapped up before Sunday.  That, my friends, is prideful arrogance and an accompanying sense of entitlement.

As a disciple of Jesus, worship on Sunday is mine to uphold and protect.  Worship on Sunday is my choice to make, my faith to live out.  The soccer organization is not a church.  The responsibility of the soccer tournament organizers is to organize a soccer tournament, not to ensure that I get to worship on Sunday.

We choose to live as disciples of Jesus, and the world doesn’t owe us making our life as Jesus’ disciples easy.  For a long time, Christians kind of imposed our way on those around us.  Most people were Christian in our society, so some of the Christian way of life became the norm.  Even when I grew up, stores were largely closed on Sunday, but what began as disciples of Jesus choosing not to work on Sundays, became disciples of Jesus expecting no one to work on Sundays (except of course the NFL – they were far too entertaining not to play on Sunday).  Parts of our way of life as disciples of Jesus became the norm and therefore easy in our society, and we began to expect society to make our discipleship rather easy, to accommodate our way of life.

Nowadays, however, society largely does not accommodate our way of life.  Sunday in society at large is just another day to work or play and there certainly aren’t accommodations made by most businesses or non-church organizations to allow Christians to worship on Sundays.  Lots of our folks at St. Mark’s have to work many, if not all Sundays.  Folks can always ask, but they can’t exactly demand that their employers allow them time off to come to church.

This bothers many of us, feeling that our jobs and our non-church organizations should know better and should accommodate our schedules as disciples of Jesus, but that is the very feeling of pride and arrogance and entitlement which Jesus warned against.  We are who we are as disciples of Jesus, and the world doesn’t owe us anything for being disciples of Jesus.  Our jobs and other non-church organizations aren’t the church, and they don’t owe us accommodations for us being the church. 

Feeling animosity towards others for not making allowances so that we can worship on Sundays is not a particularly good witness to the love of God in Jesus Christ.  Worship on Sundays is only one part of our faith.  It’s an important part, but we are Christians not only on Sunday mornings, but seven full days of the week.  As disciples of Jesus, we have been taught to live out and proclaim our faith joyfully and confidently, with humility, realizing not all will believe as we believe and we are not going to force them to.  Forcing others to believe or forcing others to accommodate our belief is really a form of cowardice, spurned on by the fear that our faith or way of life will be threatened by others not sharing our faith and way of life.

“God did not give us a spirit of cowardice, [however,] but rather a spirit of power and of love and of self-discipline. (2 Timothy 1:7)  We needn’t fear others now allowing us to live as Christians, because the only ones who can stop us believing or living as Christians is we.  Others can make it difficult for us to live out some parts of our worship life, but they can’t stop us from believing, and they can’t stop us from living out our faith in our daily lives.  Prayer can be silent and can happen anytime, anywhere.  Service to others can be big things or small things and can also happen anytime, anywhere.

Loving God and loving our neighbor requires no accommodation by those around us.  Loving God and loving our neighbor requires “a spirit of power and of love and of self-discipline.”  Our faith is ours to live and to live joyfully.  We needn’t be resentful towards the proverbial soccer organization for scheduling things when we want to be here with our St. Mark’s family. 

It is not the job of the proverbial soccer organization to allow us to live out our lives as disciples of Jesus.  It is our job to live our lives as disciples of Jesus whenever and wherever we are.  If we are worshipping here, we live our lives as disciples of Jesus.  If we cannot be here to worship, then we worship God anyway, wherever we are and live our lives as disciples of Jesus.

As for those of us who can’t be here on Sundays, we pray for them and with them, asking them to pray for and with us, wherever they may be.  As for those who take part in other activities and choose not to be here on any given Sunday, we pray for them and with them, asking them to pray for and with us, wherever they may be.     

That is true discipleship, no feelings of hurt or animosity or resentment towards those who don’t live as disciples of Jesus.  Rather, we live out our faith with love, self-discipline, and humility.  Now there is a good witness to the love of God in Jesus Christ.  We are not owed anything.  We have done only what we ought to have done as disciples of Jesus, joyfully living out our lives with “a spirit of power and of love and of self-discipline.”  Amen.