Tuesday, October 29, 2013

I'm Worthless...and Everyone Else Is Beneath Me

Brad Sullivan
Proper 25, Year C
Sunday, October 20, 2013
St. Mark’s, Bay City, TX
Joel 2:23-32
Psalm 65
2 Timothy 4:6-8, 16-18
Luke 18:9-14

“Have mercy upon us, O Lord, have mercy upon us, for we have had more than enough of contempt.  Our soul has had more than its fill of the scorn of those who are at ease, of the contempt of the proud.” (Psalm 123:3-4)  Tax collectors, the contemptible person in Jesus’ parable were generally speaking not overly great folks back in Jesus’ day.  They notoriously collected more than they were supposed to so they could give themselves a kick back.  It was easy to hold a tax collector in contempt.

Put the words of Psalm 123 on the lips of the tax collector, however, and I can’t help but feel sorry for him.  “Have mercy upon us, O Lord, have mercy upon us, for we have had more than enough of contempt.  Our soul has had more than its fill of the scorn of those who are at ease, of the contempt of the proud.” (Psalm 123:3-4)  In the context of Jesus’ parable, that psalm on the lips of the tax collector is a prayer of someone who is lost, a prayer of someone who is fairly contemptible to those around him and yet a prayer of someone who doesn’t know how else to be.   

The tax collector is harming others to help himself, and yet Jesus presents him as someone who has lost his way, or as someone who never knew a good way to go in the first place.  Jesus told another parable to some who trusted in themselves that they were righteous and regarded others with contempt.  It seems to me, that if you trust in yourself and hold others in contempt, then you’re just a stones’ throw away from becoming like the tax collector yourself, harming others to help yourself. 

This isn’t so hard to do if your life is not part of a greater narrative. If you truly trust in yourself that you are righteous, then others can quickly become beneath you.  “I’m a self made man.”  “I did this all without any help from anyone.”  “Everyone else is beneath me.”  Not everyone who would claim those first two statements would believe the third, but they are closely linked.  I am righteous through all that I do.  My life is my own, not part of a greater narrative, therefore others can easily be held in contempt. 

The flip side of that coin is, you have to prove your worth through what you do.  If what you do is the only thing that makes you righteous, then in some respect, you have to earn your own worth.  Take God’s love for you simply because you are his out of the equation.  Take your incalculable value as God’s own creation away, and yes, you do have to prove your worth and be righteous only on your own.  Take away the belief that you were made in God’s image and are a part of his redemptive work in creation, and you likely should trust in yourself and hold others in contempt. 

In our Gospel story today, however, Jesus was talking to Jews.  Folks who believe in nothing greater than themselves can easily feel how Jesus was describing, trusting in themselves and holding others with contempt.  The people of Israel, however, believed they were part of a greater narrative, part of something greater than themselves.  They believed that God had made them and redeemed them as a people to be a light to the nations.  How could they then hold others in contempt?  They were shown God’s love and their great value through God’s love, that they might show that same love and value to others.  “Have you forgotten who you are?”  Jesus was asking.

I was at clergy conference this week, and one of our presenters, Dwight Zscheile, talked about growing up in a nominally Christian household in a part of the country where 85% of the people claimed no religious affiliation.  His family, while Christians, basically fell into that 85%.  He never attended worship growing up.  They didn’t pray.  He didn’t learn the Gospel narrative.  Dwight basically grew up feeling about like I described above, like he had to earn his own worth through what he did.  I don’t know that he treated others with contempt, but he felt that he had very little self worth if he did not accomplish great things. 

As he grew up, however, some folks introduced him to the Gospel narrative.  Some of these were church goers, and some of these were not, but by the time he finished college, he was a committed Christian, having heard and believed that he was a part of a greater narrative than just his own life.  Being a Christian, he no longer believed he had to trust in his own righteousness and earn his self worth, but as he put it, he believed in…

…an alternative story, one in which every human life is precious beyond measure, created for loving relationship with the source of all life.  In this story, your worth is given, not earned.  Rather than bearing the weight of making it all up as you go, you find yourself in a common narrative that goes back many generations.  You are welcomed into a community of unlike people where difference need not be cause for division, as is so often the case in our world.  You are offered forgiveness for your faults and errors, for the violence you do to others and this earth, and so are released to forgive others and break the cycle of hatred and retribution.  You are claimed by a love and power beyond your own.  You are held in arms of grace.  And in that embrace, you are freed to participate in the restoration of human community and all creation.
(Zscheile, Dwight J.: People of the Way:  Renewing Episcopal Identity, Morehouse, New York, 2012, p. 2)
 
There isn’t exactly room for self-righteousness and contempt in being “freed to participate with God in the restoration of human community and all creation.”  Self-righteousness and contempt diminish who we are and the restorative work we get to do in partnership with God.  Self-righteousness and contempt are not who we are as disciples of Jesus.  As disciples of Jesus, we are offered forgiveness “and are so released to forgive others.”

This is not to say that we don’t point out faults or bad behavior when we see it.  Of course we do.  Jesus made no bones about demanding a high moral standard for his disciples.  What else could he demand when his two guiding laws were love God and love your neighbor? 

As disciples of Jesus, we too are called to point out bad behavior when we see it, but we are called to do so without contempt.  We’re called to think, not just react, and we are called to build others up in love, not tear them down in contempt. 

This goes to all of our interactions with others…how we raise our kids, treat our neighbors, forgive those who have hurt us, and seek restoration with those whom we would otherwise hold in contempt.  Forgiveness, love, incalculable worth as God’s children, beloved and redeemed by Jesus.  This is our life, and this is who we are.  This is the narrative and the Gospel which we live and believe, being baptized into Jesus’ body.  This is the narrative and Body into which Rinley Dodd will be baptized this morning, a narrative and Body in which she is in the words of Dwight Zscheile

precious beyond measure, created for loving relationship with the source of all life.  In this story, [her] worth is given, not earned.  Rather than bearing the weight of making it all up as goes [she’ll find herself] in a common narrative that goes back many generations.  [In this narrative she is] welcomed into a community of unlike people where difference need not be cause for division, as is so often the case in our world.  [She is] offered forgiveness for [her] faults and errors, for the violence [she’ll] do to others and this earth, and so [she is] released to forgive others and break the cycle of hatred and retribution.  [She is] claimed by a love and power beyond [her] own.  [She is] held in arms of grace.  And in that embrace, [she is] freed to participate in the restoration of human community and all creation.

(Zscheile, Dwight J.: People of the Way:  Renewing Episcopal Identity, Morehouse, New York, 2012, p. 2)

Amen.

 

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